Starlight Conspiracy

Current mood: accomplished
Category: Life

just when you think you have people figured out, sometimes they go and surprise you-most of the time it seems they do it in a bad way and you see their true colors-we will call them "fair weather friends"--only seem to be around when the partying is right and you've got some "starlight" for them to steal--they seem to think it will rub off on them--but they dont seem to realize you gotta get that for yourself--hanging with "cool" people will not make you cool-in fact, all the "cool" people think you are trying to hard and all the other people like you think you are being fake--these are the people that turn into "fair weather friends" when they get into your circle--im starting a "stop stealing the starlight" campaign--lets not forget my favorite group of people, the smallest group in the scene-the "ANY WEATHER FRIENDS"-getting one of these makes the 100 "fair weather friends" you just met worth it---respect-

Under Dogs

Like Wolverine and jean gray
forest Gump and Jenny
Lloyd Christmas and Mary Swanson
King Kong and the damsel in Distress....
We want whats different
When the unnatural feels natural
Like a Breathe of fresh air in a City
where the underdog isnt the hero in the end
Maybe he was born to fail
or just maybe he's got what we all search for in life
the passion to see what means most to us...
and the Blind Faith to follow it---

Photographs

We hold on to photographs as they pull us back to the past
and get caught in lost dreams
that are much older than they seem
and we pray the present will never last
cuz the loves lost a fools cost of underestimating our soul
the time is spent...we feel confident...
when its the NOW thats out of control

Your Best Friends Wedding

Current mood: creative
Category: Life

He Bleeds out his heart, yet she still squeezed it out dry
and forced out the words that make it harder to cry
He fumbles with love and brings tears to her eye
and opens up doors that make it harder to lie

the story unfolds as stones weigh down his sides
and the water is deep inside the happiest brides
can wishes come true, for you, when wanting to fly?
but who needs the truth, so just tell her you tried

OUtside of Myself

outside of myself
Current mood: accomplished
Category: Writing and Poetry

sometimes i stop and take a look at my life from someone elses shoes. to try and see what they see in me. id wonder why i treat people with respect and give them the benefit of the doubt why i laugh ten times more than i cry. why i give advice based upon what ive learned and not what ive read or been told. why i have so much passion for life, even though some days that road turns icey while your rounding the corner why i drive a 250 dollar car into that icey curve as i smile and look down to crank up the music.

---life is short-------we've all got one quarter to put in the jukebox.....what song are you gonna be?

Outside looking in, on a New Year

outside looking in on a new year
Current mood: accomplished

new years resolutions....these are the things we try to change or create going into a new year...a quick scan of our hard drives looking for files that are missing or "corrupted"....on new years eve i found myself being introspective, well as best i could considering i was drinking....

i thought, what do i want to change..what is "wrong" with me or not "good enough" should i do a reformat of my hard drive?...do i have defragemented hopes dreams and goals i need to get back in order? that i need to set a day to have it all fixed. i think in some peoples eyes this is how we are conditioned to look at ourselves on a day like new years. after the short moment of thinking like that, i reconfirmed the fact that i see things a little different than that. im 31, ive been atleast somewhat conscious of the world around me for quite some time. my friends, we'll call them "the fellowship of the fling" for all intensive purposes, are pretty sharp cats who like me dont act their age, in a good way.

A tiger cannot change its stripes...a phrase i have come to appreciate tremendously. what an absolute idea. if you are something with predisposed traits and inherant "markings", then you will always be that, atleast at the core or surface, depending on how deep you are i guess. in a good way, i think we are all tigers with stripes. we cannot remove them but through "grooming" and "training" we can look at those stripes and feel different about them.

Victor Frankl who was a prisoner in nazi germany learned to adapt to his agonizing world. he chose to process the pain and punishment he was recieving in an amazing way by saying to himself, "i choose how i feel, ultimately, regardless of what is put upon me. my stripes wont change, but how i see and feel them will. (check out his book, -Mans search for meaning-http://webspace.ship.edu/cgboer/frankl.html-) no one, not even myself, can change me. i am JJ and always will be.and like ourselves, the world is the tiger and the people its stripes. what im getting at is if the majority of the people in your life love and respect you, and you feel "whole" or feel as if you represent yourself in a way you believe then what is there to fix?. saving more money to buy the car you want is a new years resolution. quitting smoking or drinking less(both of which i should consider ;).

life has a funny way of putting things in your path to overcome and to grow from. life puts nothing in your path you cannot overcome. ive come to realize that all the shit i went through growing up, was the exact recipe needed to make me who i am today. and im proud. if you can learn to look at your stripes differently, then everything does change. its all about how you process it. my new years resolutions are:


swear less(when applicable)
smoke less cigs
hit the gym
see my grandma more
laugh more..wait..might not be possible
listen to the advice i give
finish my album
visit jamaica again
buy a condo
and most importantly....continue to treat people as i would want to be treated...respect....happy new year!!!!!